Rest

Most of you know that I have been confined to the couch or bed. It has been a very hard thing because not only do I have no choice but I can't even "sneak" an extra thing like putting away a load of laundry or cleaning something in. I have been "resting" a lot. I don't like any of this...BUT....

GOD continues to open my eyes to the blessings. My mind and human side keeps peeking at the struggle BUT....GOD won't let my eyes focus on it! Right now I must say the blessings really do outweigh the struggle (in the bigger picture)

I rest but what I see is all the one's around me whose work load has gotten just a little heavier. My husband, family, and friends who have without question stepped in to help this family stay afloat. My sweet friends who take the girls to practice, classes, AWANA, take me in the wheelchair, and more. My Mom, Granny, and mother in law who clean and do laundry. My husband who DOES IT ALL and even goes as far as to bake us a cake, is presently washing all the dishes, on top of the worries for his wife and family. My Dad and Brothers and Aunt who call me and make me laugh when I need it most. The countless number of people who have brought a meal and have signed up to bring a meal. The many visitors who pop in just to say hi. I never want to be someone who boasts about the things she gets in life and so my intention here is not for that. Yet, it's to speak (testify) of the mighty thing that GOD is doing in the midst of this long struggle. I see that no matter how "long" a struggle goes on GOD doesn't check out and say "I've helped you too much". He blesses us with angels who say "how can I help", "please let me take you in your wheelchair", "here's a treat", and "sure I can take them". But as I see the work load and listen to the lie (as God has made me aware of) that I am burdening them GOD reminds me of the blessing. Even if I think they should rest and not have to help us with this yoke...God reminds me that the blessing of these people is from HIM who never says "I've helped you too much".

Overcome

This is my rooftop and I am SHOUTING from it!!

"we WILL overcome by the blood of the lamb and the word of our testimony"!!!!

For Carolyn,

With LOVE,
Julie

Dear Anonymous,

These were the most delicious treat my mouth has had in a LONG time! I not only enjoyed one the night they showed up but also for the next two mornings with my Chai Tea! I am sure I love you even if you are anonymous!

My visit to UCLA

Just got home from UCLA they ended up not admitting me...they said that really there is nothing more they can do for me, the only thing at this point they can do is hope for lungs and soon...this may be how it is until then my body may be just too tired...I have to continue stay still...I have a lot of pressure in my lungs (imagine someone sitting on your chest) and am not able to sit or lay much because of it, this seems to be worse than the last couple of days. I and my body are very exhausted and because of all the hard breathing and pressure. WE KNOW GOD is bigger than any diagnosis and are trusting in God to provide as HE always does...in ALL things. I am beyond thankful for ALL of the good days God has blessed me with because according to DR's this is what I should always feel. My lung function has worsened even since my last hospitalization in April...I am currently 5 on the list BUT remember that doesn't mean much. It's a numbers game with
the Organ Donation "list". There are A LOT of factors that go into who gets organs. I have to get some scans done of my heart and if those show that my heart is starting to deteriorate then I would move up on the list. You can see how confusing it is right? Well we just pray for GOD to do His perfect will in all of this...and for me to be stable. We love you guys and thank you for all of your prayers and support...God is faithful...ALL the time!

Ahhhh

Fashion doesn't matter behind closed doors....so here's to men's socks that are too big and comfy slippers...the chill has arrived....ahhhhh 

And you ask why I hate shopping?

My morning; took Analiese to comp class, then the B's and I went to buy the Man allergy meds at the Target pharmacy...and they were closed until 10am...STRIKE 1....then picked up A and got a coffee (smile) then I decided to go to Ralphs and get the meds, dinner stuff, and water for my oxygen machine, one stop shopping right?...WRONG!! they only had the big honkin pack of meds....STRIKE 2....bought dinner stuff bumped into Geneva (smiled, said hi and hid the fact that I was huffin and puffin and about ready to cry)....went to CVS (huff) signed my life away to buy allergy meds AND didn't have my ID...GGRRRR...A gets my ID frm car and I finish the transaction to buy these apparently high demand drugs?!?! Drive home....ERRRRRKK!! What???? I forgot the water for the ox!!! STRIKE 3! Walk into the house and see my Man...then come my tears of frustration while huffing and puffing and he says "don't worry babe I'll get it"...thank you LORD for that Man!! (again)

Jul's out

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